green river..

if i could put the cool guitar lick after this line i would, but i cant, so i wont..

my crazy river weekend was awesome. i drove there alone on saturday morning, just me and the pup together going on this adventure i had no idea what i was walking into, but i liked it like that. i dont do too much stuff on a whim these days, or ever actually, so it was nice to kind of just let go and go for something new. i like that i have been open lately to new things to come into my life, and not just staying stuck in my little box that i have created for myself. ok so my drive there was incredible, i had great music, great weather, a full tank of gas, food, a joint and directions. it was all i needed too. i knew my phone might not work out there, so i was prepared for it, but it was really cool that it didnt work. it was nice to shut off from society and just be in this safe little place in the wilderness and just experience life "in the wild"per-say. when i got there ate lunch, a ganja cookie, and hit the road. we walked up about a quarter or half a mile in the blazing hot sun, with only our bathing suits, shoes and water. we walked down this crazy little path and hit the river. we were going floating down the river, which is something ive never done before, and had noooo idea what i was getting myself into.

it was amazing though. we just went down the river with our bodies, i felt so connected to the earth and tibby and terra. we really bonded which was the best part of the whole thing. i havent really felt like that with too many people since i moved out here. i thought all those fun adventures you have with people which make you better friends didnt really exists anymore, so it was really really refreshing to share those moments and memories with them. after we went through a few mini rapids, we were just chillin letting the current take us. we found this little beach and decided to lay on it for a while and let the cookies just kick in and enjoy life. there were these 3 butterflies that hung out around us too which was awesome, and oddly enough there were two yellow ones, and one black and whitish one, so we decided that was us, since me and terra are blondes and tibby is a brunette! these butterflies followed us all weekend too it was quite magical. after this whole butterfly thing happened we saw a bald eagle! it was so radical, and on the 4th of july of all days too. it was just right. the whole day was just right.

today i came home, back to reality and its not so bad, i really was looking forward to coming back to my own space and excited that i had someone to come back to. it was a first in a long time, where i felt like he was maybe just as excited as i was to be coming back. we were gonna hang out tonight, but it got too late so we will tomorrow! this whole dating thing is so new and nice to be involved in. its nice to be someone someone else wants for real and out loud and not all secretive, or cheesy, or guilty or drunk. its real and nice, even if it doesnt work out i learned im not gonna be nobodys secret ever again. ive done it too much, i deserve way better and expect it now.

tomorrow night, or early tuesday morning at 2:12am there is a full moon eclipse! its so rad, i saw it last year too. way special, check it out!