joe lies, when he cries...

have you ever thought about lying? like really the whole idea of lying, and lies and why people lie and how we all lie. lying is so deeply rooted in some of us, and others have never lied out right in their lives..but the thing is we all do it. we lie to teachers, bosses, parents, friends, boyfriends, cops, strangers, etc..but most of all we lie to ourselves the most. when things arent going so well, we lie to keep our spirits up, is that a bad lie? not really. but its still a lie. when something bad happens to someone, you tell them "it will be okay" even if it wont. thats another lie. yet again uesd in a good way, but still a lie what the fuck. why do we do this as a country? as a society? as a world?? it doesnt make any sense to me. lies never lead to any good. they mislead, they start a downward spiral of more lies. some people lie for the thrill, some people lie, cause they lost the truth so long ago they wouldnt even know how to tell it. some feel they have to, for other purposes, but the point is it never does any good to you or them, or whatever. even if you lie to a boss to get out of work early, i feel like maybe a piece of your soul is taken. its weird. i feel weird about this subject. i lie pretty much everyday, if not to others than totally to myself. i wish i wouldnt. i wish i had the balls to be straight up with people when i talk to them, but why the fuck cant i???? why does society say its not pollite to the tell the truth. a dude asked me out to dinner, i totally had no intention of going out with him when he asked, but i pussied out and said "maybe" so then of course he takes that as "i have a chance" and calls me..what do i do? i wait 3 days then TEXT him with "im sorry i cant go out with you, because im into someone else, and i dont think it will be fair" WHAT A FUCKING PUSSY I AM. why didnt i just say no in the first place? cause its awkward and rude thats why. but why do i care? why fuck with someones emotions? i guess im gettting off topic, but either way LYING SUCKS.